Today marks the beginning of a counseling internship that I’m ecstatic about. It is a dream of a team and place to work at and, if I’m honest, feels out of my league.
Someone once told me if you feel out of your league that’s exactly where you should be. Still, insecurity, fear, shame quickly take root in a place where I feel so privileged (and if shame-based, unworthy) to serve. How often I find this “shame” mentality around me and silently within me.
So, in dwelling on God’s grace and all-sufficiency this morning I wrote a poem about these realities that I’m currently feeling and probably many clients will feel as they step into my office. I’m not proud of the “poetic-ness” of this poem, I am proud of the concepts:
Shame
Arrogance-rooted, fear-suited.
It goes nowhere, finds no one, yet everyone knows.
Satan. He loves you for it.
The trips, dips, finds
of mind, soul, sleeping.
All for naught,
you weren’t made for this.
The chains and fame
empty themselves in the thought of self.
What is more–why?
Why do you place Life on your
100 lbs humanly shoulder?
It is not hard to believe our God is stronger.
It is hard to believe our God is NOT a God of shame.
“He has covered all my sin.”
Believe.
Today is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=au3EGgISYMc&ob=av2e
